Another thing that annoyed me... was how long it took to get a simple response.

Here I was being all emotional, vulnerable, and saying whatever was on my mind... and here she is getting her "boyfriend" to talk to me, waiting, getting technical with responses, and responding with bulky ass shit, while I'm doing one liners, trying to make it all sound natural... because that's what you do when you talk.  You talk with honesty and it's most honest when it's natural, not calculated long ass BS!!!

I feel like responding to that last message...

Because I responded when I was tired and angry.  It's not fair.  This instant messaging days.

I should have waited a week... and it's been a week.  It's a good time to respond.  But it's already over.

The last message was "ATTACK ATTACK ATTACk goodbye."  A hit and run.  Not fair.  Didn't give me a chance to attack.

Ugh it's so annoying!  Here I am being a responsible friend and what do I get?  Shit!  I get shit!

Oh and I think I want to be a Nurse... the people won't call me a pedophile, and I can relate to everyone in my family since everyone in my family are nurses. Plus motherfucking WALT WHITMAN was a nurse!!!

Money money money money money money money money money money money money money money!!!!!!!!

I think this is why Benjamin Franklin says we all die at 25.  We all submit to MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY.

Aristotle would say it's okay, the more money you make the more you're able to help everyone else!  I think it's true.  I can donate more, give to homeless, blah blah blah.

Ah I've been thinking of 1Q84 and Final Fantasy VIII...

I don't like 1Q84 a lot... it's supposed to be an epic love story.  I think Final Fantasy VIII's is better and cuter, and more realistic-ish.

 The whole Laguna and Julia thing... and then Laguna having a second love after Julia, and having a child with her.  And then Julia, marrying someone else who's not Laguna and having a child with him... and the children fall in love when they're all grown up.

Maybe my future child will marry her future child... Lol

I've been trying to limit my internt usage.  My productivity decreases when I'm online, because all I do is stalk her, and it is useless now that she really did move on, and does not remember me.

So that's easy.  I don't turn on my computer anymore.

Now, the problem.  I have an Ipad.

And I changed my wallpaper.

To Mirururururn so fking cute wtf I just press the home button just to see her face like every five minutes, then I check Neko Atsume, and then i exit and check my wallpaper home page thing again, SO CUTE WTF.

Mirurun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually nevermind, not going to move on...

If moving on means that I'll talk to girls to date them... I am not going to do that.

I'm just going to be here.  And do what I normally do.

Which is being a total nerrrrrd and thinker of goofy stuff.

List of games I want...

-Kingdom Hearts Rechain of Memories
-Wild Arms
-Wild Arms II
-Wild Arms V
-Shadow Hearts
-Shadow Hearts Covenant
-Shadow Hearts to the New World
-Shin Megami Tensei Nocturne

Moving on without a closure...

I read somewhere that writing a list of the person's cons can help me move on...

-Really ugly
-Thinks she's cute, but really ugly
-Bad taste in fashion
-Ugly yellow teeth
-Bad to her parents
-Refuses to talk about important issues
-Hypocritical
-Believes in the dumb politicians
-Refuses to understand other people
-Dishonest
-Liar
-Flirty
-Big hands
-Big feet
-Slippers
-Bad to her sister
-Unappreciative of what she has
-Says bad words
-Doesn't read novels
-Too many relatives
-Inconsiderate
-Doesn't listen to George Carlin
-My mom would call her ugly
-My dad would call her ugly
-My brother would call her ugly
-My cousin would call her ugly
-Shit, everyone will think she ugly!!!

Of course she has a lot of good things about her... but I'm writing this to move on, not to fall for her again.