Ah I think I found the answer...

I should always remember she wanted a BMW at one point.

Maybe I can get over her if I keep thinking that.  BMW drivers are... Lol.

I think I'll just wait.  I will know when it is over when there is concrete proof that she is in a relationship already.

Ugh can't stop stalking.

I feel that there's so much more that I have to say... and there's more that she has to say as well.

But...

It's just a feeling.  It's all in my head.

In reality, it's over.

Disrespect?!??!

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!

HOW.  The.  FUCK.  Did.  I.  DISRESPECT YOU?!?!?!

You fucking taunt me that you like some other guy.  You FUCKING IGNORE ME.  YOU DID NOT TRY ANYTHING.  ANY FUCKING THING.  AT FUCKING ALL.  TO SALVAGE THE FRIENDSHIP.

AND YOU GO AROUND SAYING.. FRIENDS, and how you like having FRIENDS, and having your name BASED ON FRIENDSHIP?  FUCKING.  HYPOCRITE.  GTFO, OUT OF LIFE.

Disrespect?!?!?!

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!

HOLY.  FUCKING.  FUCK.

Sure I got mad at you.

YOU FUCKING DESERVED IT.  YOU WERE FUCKING ASKING FOR IT.  TELLING HOW YOU LIKE MEAN GUYS.  AND DID YOU LIKE BEING MEAN TO?!?!?!  Fucking IGNORANT IDIOT.  SEVERELY.  SOCIALLY INEPT.  ASSHOLE. THIS.  BITCH.  THIS FUCKING BITCH.

Holy.  FUCKING.  HELL. I'm going INSANE.

Holy fuck I think I am more mad at myself for believing this bitch.  Holy fuck am I this lonely?  Out of everyone I fell for I fell for a fucking bitch?  A socially inept asshole hypocritical one too?  Only thing I can do is laugh...

I am tired.

I feel worse than before

I am so sad.

I think I did feel the earthquake at 2.  I randomly woke up, turned on my iPad, and used up my Stamina in Final Fantasy Record Keeper and went back to sleep.

Things I still need to do about it:

• Apologize for being mean (and reason out that she told me she likes mean guys, and of course, saw it as my chance to show that I can be really mean too...)  But I really did mean what I said. It would have been worth it if she stopped using friends and throwing them away, though I doubt it.  I noticed she stopped hanging out with another person.  
• Saying why I did not accept the apology (since she left again when I wasn't finished)
• Tell her I said happy birthday last year on her BlogSpot but she didn't close it down or whatever so assume that it is okay to do so