Breaking the Habit:  Must never look guilty no matter how guilty I am.  Always show a strong face.  But talk with honesty.

Things I should do:  Intentionally make people worry about the small things in life.

Being isolated and because of being isolated, being able to gain a different perspectives on things makes me so ready for society.  I am more comfortable with my identity because of this, and now I am ready to be addicted to life.

Watched FROZEN.  My favorite movie right now *_*.
I love OLAF.

Not going to watch or read anything else for a few days, I don't want the after effects of watching FROZEN to be contaminated (not saying everything other than FROZEN are pathogens, I just feel so good right now after watching FROZEN and I do not want to risk watching something that will burst my bubble... or melt my ice).

Sure I'm used to loneliness and being left out... I should have built resistance to it.  But it still hurts... more on this story later, it's SO STUPID Lol.

So I am a bit happy right now.  But being happy means that the next wave of sadness will hurt me hard.  Defense mode.

Damn, I can still feel the burn on my left cheek from the flourescent light, attempting to take a perfect selfie two days ago :(

Spent like 40 minutes and could not even get a single good picture or pose.  I gave up when my eyes started hurting.

Welp, have to go back to society sooner or later even though I am not fully healed.  (Maybe society will heal me. )