Putting Off Things Until Tomorrow... or Until I Die

I was four when I realized I had people around me, and that things will always be the same.
Until I turned four and three quarters.

It was a karaoke video of ... this guy who died.  What is death?

Being buried.  You're in a enclosed casket underground, can't breath, bugs everywhere.

But that won't happen until many years from now... so don't worry about it.

So don't worry about the future.  Dying won't happen until many years pass.
Don't worry about the test, your future job, your future family, your own well being, because nothing is going to happen until many years pass.  Just wait.  Procrastinate.  Because nothing will affect you until many years pass.

Really cool people can be boring, so it's okay to be boring.

Everyone just looks so perfect... until they say something.

Actually, time IS valuable.  Because... well, I'm still in school OTL

Notes

Henri Bergson
The pure present is an ungraspable advance of the past devouring the future.  In truth, all sensation is already memory.

Hegel
At the same time that 'I' am the content of a relation, 'I' am also that which does the relating.

Hegel believed that a person is not merely conscious of self and object as separate entities, but through the projection of the self via the mediation of the object is volitionally able to gain a deeper understanding of the self.  All of which constitutes self-consciousness.

Time is no longer valuable.  I am O.K. as long as I have Imagination.

story notes

For my future indie RPG game to make my little mark on the world.

-Will be very sentimental, like a sentimental novel.  I normally dislike them, but I think with a lot of humor and wit, it'll be O.K.

-Main characters will be based on U.S. heroes (Harriet Tubman, Abraham Lincoln, etc)

-There will be a Beautiful Girl dying.

-Characters are in college in a modern urban setting

-Certain areas will have structures to help with science (Like a Cell(somethingsomething) building, and areas such as Mitochondria;asdjf to help with... well, science stuff.

-Lots of things will go unexplained.  Main character will have an imaginary friend just appear out of no where.

-The antagonist is my favorite character right now.

Make Work an escape.