As soon as I got the hint I should have kicked her ass... fuck.  Now I feel that I lost.

FUCK.  Her friendship suck so much that I can't even shed a tear for her no matter what I dig through or think about.  She sucked so much!

... and maybe that's the reason why I was so attracted to her...

Things I Hella Hate/ Uncomfortable Doing

-Asking for something

1.  Asking for something.  I think its because it ruins my consistency train, as that I I've never really ask for things... because my mom has always anticipated everything I guess.  Maybe that's one of the cons of being such a good mom.

This is not right...

She's happy.

I'm supposed to be happy that she's happy...

Why am I not happy that she's happy?

I'm supposed to love her, and I'm supposed to be happy when she's happy...

But I'm not...

But this is really pumping me up.  I feel like working hard on something...

Or... I just don't love her afterall!

And if I don't love her, that means she's a stranger...
And if she's a stranger, I don't know her, and she posts stuff on Tumblr for the Public!
If I wasn't a stranger, I would be the "Private" and not the public!
So that means I'm part of the public...
And it's okay to stalk!!!!!

Ah shit, must respect her, lalala.

Hmmm...

Maybe I should stalk her to get her attention again...

What could go wrong?  She'll never blog on Tumblr again?

It's not like she has a Tumblr right now anyways, because I'm not reading it... and it's all for myself, just like how she only cares about herself!  Eye for an eye.

I WANT to respect her decision... maybe I'll respect her for one more week?  Then I'll resume my stalking spree.

Damn, I just want to know what she really thought of me...

Who Knew?

Who knew I would fall this hard...

When I first saw her, I was thinking, why can't my Maple girl friends be cute like her?

We became friends shortly after and talked so much...

And then, I felt that she liked me, but I wasn't sure.  I didn't like her 100% because... there was something missing.  Maybe I felt that it would be too easy.

And now there's a challenege, but its more than a challenege, because she's not even in vicinity of contact anymore.  The only way is to talk to her through friends or to be really really creepy.

Seriously though.

1st time- Embarrassing
2nd time- I WAS TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION TO CHECK BASIL.  For my hate message.  Fucking dumbass.  I hate people like her actually... God, I'm glad it's almost over.

Last Assumption

Realizing my limitations kinda hurts...

Well I think there's only one thing left to do.  One last assumption.

"she'll feel more comfortable talking in a group setting...".