Who Knew?

Who knew I would fall this hard...

When I first saw her, I was thinking, why can't my Maple girl friends be cute like her?

We became friends shortly after and talked so much...

And then, I felt that she liked me, but I wasn't sure.  I didn't like her 100% because... there was something missing.  Maybe I felt that it would be too easy.

And now there's a challenege, but its more than a challenege, because she's not even in vicinity of contact anymore.  The only way is to talk to her through friends or to be really really creepy.

Seriously though.

1st time- Embarrassing
2nd time- I WAS TRYING TO GET YOUR ATTENTION TO CHECK BASIL.  For my hate message.  Fucking dumbass.  I hate people like her actually... God, I'm glad it's almost over.

Last Assumption

Realizing my limitations kinda hurts...

Well I think there's only one thing left to do.  One last assumption.

"she'll feel more comfortable talking in a group setting...".

I'm looking into it way too much...

I should really respect her decision.

Sigh.  I don't know what to do anymore.

Nah, I don't think I'll get third parties involved.

She clearly said that she doesn't like me.

no more flattery.

Waiting for eternity is nothing it if it's you.

Being nice WON'T work, nor is being funny... my best bet is to show how much I understand her and shove it down her throat.

A Comment

You said you won't read or respond to messages.  Well, this is a comment, not a message, and you can respond to this and I won't say you are a hypocrite.

But either way, I can't take your message seriously because of a typo, "you obviously you can't", and because of this, I now know how an employer interviewing for an interview feels like.

You said I SHOULD stop viewing your Tumblr, but you didn't say you HAVE to, so I'll view it anyways, because I'm creepy, okay?  And you only talk to me if I become creepy so that's what I'll do.  Even if I can't take your message seriously, I cherish it.  I think I've even memorized it, and it makes me smile because of how much I miss hearing directly from you.

And IDGAF that you don't like me.  I only care about myself and that I love you.

I also made a hate message and a not so hate message, which one would you like to hear?  I don't know because I'm not naturally really angry or really nice so I don't know which one you'd like to read, or not read at all, but I really want to write to you again....

(Back up plan: Force third parties to be involved.  She can't hate on her... my only problem will be when my third party turns her back on me...)

I don't want to do anything.

I failed at all my dreams and aspirations.

I can only celebrate with empathy.