"Don't forget her, but move on."

Maybe she'll be happy if I thought like that...

Because of her I have higher standards now... it has to be her, if not, better in all of her traits, and I have to be feelin it... she raised the bar up so high.

... and because of her, I believe in love again.

Why couldn't you tell me that seven months ago... you inconsiderate piece of shit!

there is more than one truth...

I didn't want to let you know that I didn't stay committed to you.  My feelings ran wild, and I felt like moving on... it wouldn't hurt I thought, it wouldn't hurt you because you didn't like me.

But it hurt me.

For now, I have to respect her last message, and avoid "spamming" her.  I guess one buddy request a day isn't spam.  I'll interrupt her 11:11 wish as I request it.

Patience is a virtue

too light winning make the prize light

WHEW

I thought she felt that I was emotionally cheating on her, but she didn't, just mad at what I did....

Or maybe the truth would have been better, that I actually did consider talking and dating that other girl...

SIGH, NEVER GOING TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT AGAIN.  I'm going to ask for consent to the girl  I really like next time, and if it's not going anywhere, I HAVE TO TELL HER.

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget

It's fucking stupid to forget.

It's fucking stupid to forget

ehHEHEHEHE.

"Judging the mistakes of strangers is an easy thing to do... and it feels pretty good." - SPUTNIK SWEETHEART

That quote has no relation to what I'm about to say.

And I think I know why I'm not crying.  I have it embedded in my mind that a man cannot cry until its all over.  And it isn't over, it never was over!

That's why I have to remind myself: a month from now... thump thump thump.

Saturday was my uncle's birthday, and a few of my cousins came over to my house.  We celebrated it in my house, because my uncle wanted to celebrate it at my house.  I guess its because its bigger and there's a lot of space.

So while waiting for my birthday uncle, my other uncle, auntie, and cousin decided to visit my grandpa's grave, and so we went... and like on the way I asked where my cousins BF was, because she's always with him, and she was like w/e, I don't care.

And then after visiting my grandpa, we arrive home and her BF was there with my other cousin and his GF, and he just like went up and kissed her or w/e, and it was so cute wtf, I thought they were like in a relationship turmoil...

And its like what can I do in situations like this... NOTHING AT ALL, because its LDR, unless I like show how not creepy I am IRL which is my goal right now, I have to meet her to verify that she's not the one, or if she's the one.  I know I'm all around kick ass!

So yeah, we celebrated... hella fun.  We had a 4 vs 4 basketball game.  My team lost, but my stat line was like 6-2-4 or something, playing up to 16 points.  I think I did pretty good in the beginning because I was like passing it to everyone and I stole the ball like twice or something lol.  It was like a playground, they were riding our bikes around our backyard, doing pull ups in our pull up bar and so much outdoor fun @_@  I LOVE FAMILY.. unconditional love <3 ...="" about="" because="" don="" forever.="" fucking="" have="" nbsp="" p="" personality="" re="" t="" tied="" to="" together="" up="" we="" worry="" you="" your="">