reflection phase

she said I was too calm 

And I guess my non calm form wasn't good enough... but I think I am naturally really passive and calm because I don't give a fuck about anything.

I don't like you

Fucking dumbass.  I said I only care about myself, and caring for myself means I only care about liking you.  I don't give a fuck if you like me or not. 

Nutrition Facts

I've learned somewhere that the labels are misleading.

But I don't think much people read them anyway.

I think Nutrition Facts should be like this, or at least have a label that tells people this:

CHOCOLATE CAKE:  Makes you fat

Or tells what it does to your brain.

CHOCOLATE CAKE:  Makes you fat, makes you more aggressive, lazy

10 Day Challenge, Day 6

6. Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

- Lol, I'll lump them all together: ENTIRE FAMILY

 -A

- C

- J

- My future wife.

Knowing that you HAVE to do something...

May be the best feeling in the world.

Last Words

"To put this bluntly, you're creepy. I didn't think I'd have to spell it out for you, but you obviously you can't take a hint. I don't like you and I wasn't going to respond to your messages. But there are boundaries and you've pushed it. You're downright stalkerish. You should stop lurking my tumblr. It's creepy that you managed to find my new one and visited my old one like 500 times a day. I won't read or respond to any further messages, quit spamming."

Hah, this is how it ends... in the end, as best friends as we were for four months, it ends like this:

Me holding on as long as possible,

her not caring at all.

And I guess there are people like that, but it is what it is.  I'm not sad, because I fought til the bitter end.

Thus concludes the love that I thought was meant to be.

The worst that can happen now is me reclusing from the world and people there by my side when I'm trying to recluse.

What I learned:  Skeptical, or non skeptical, don't think about it because being either way will hurt you in the end.  Also, to get answers, you have to become creepy.  Also, don't wait, it's always Now or Never. Actually I was always a Now or Never type of person, its just that I became cautious just recently, and yeah, maybe its more of to stop being so cautious?

What I hope she learned:  To be more blunt?

God I'm glad its not her... she's sorta  "ehh", lol. 

More of a reason to recluse...

at least just tiny happy moments.... make me incredibly happy.
But I have to realize it first.

10 Day Challenge, Day 5

5. Six things you wish you'd never done

1.  Ask for a computer
2.  Talk
3.  Eat
4.  Breathe
5.  Go to college
6.  Think

And so

And so it transforms to extreme hatred.