10 Day Challenge, Day 6

6. Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

- Lol, I'll lump them all together: ENTIRE FAMILY

 -A

- C

- J

- My future wife.

Knowing that you HAVE to do something...

May be the best feeling in the world.

Last Words

"To put this bluntly, you're creepy. I didn't think I'd have to spell it out for you, but you obviously you can't take a hint. I don't like you and I wasn't going to respond to your messages. But there are boundaries and you've pushed it. You're downright stalkerish. You should stop lurking my tumblr. It's creepy that you managed to find my new one and visited my old one like 500 times a day. I won't read or respond to any further messages, quit spamming."

Hah, this is how it ends... in the end, as best friends as we were for four months, it ends like this:

Me holding on as long as possible,

her not caring at all.

And I guess there are people like that, but it is what it is.  I'm not sad, because I fought til the bitter end.

Thus concludes the love that I thought was meant to be.

The worst that can happen now is me reclusing from the world and people there by my side when I'm trying to recluse.

What I learned:  Skeptical, or non skeptical, don't think about it because being either way will hurt you in the end.  Also, to get answers, you have to become creepy.  Also, don't wait, it's always Now or Never. Actually I was always a Now or Never type of person, its just that I became cautious just recently, and yeah, maybe its more of to stop being so cautious?

What I hope she learned:  To be more blunt?

God I'm glad its not her... she's sorta  "ehh", lol. 

More of a reason to recluse...

at least just tiny happy moments.... make me incredibly happy.
But I have to realize it first.

10 Day Challenge, Day 5

5. Six things you wish you'd never done

1.  Ask for a computer
2.  Talk
3.  Eat
4.  Breathe
5.  Go to college
6.  Think

And so

And so it transforms to extreme hatred.

Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.

Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.
Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.
Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.
Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.
Anger is the last resort to the pathetic.

This is how it should end... both parties angry at each other, unwilling to forgive.

Holding on for so long... being so patient, but trying a different approach.

The best way to leave without any regrets.

10 Day Challenge, Day 4

4. Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1. J.O. 
2. XXX
3. Death
4. Procrastinating
5. My future
6. The future
7.  Things that made me laugh in the past that makes me laugh out randomly