10 Day Challenge, Day 1

10 Day Challenge
1. Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
2. Nine things about yourself
3. Eight ways to win your heart
4. Seven things that cross your mind a lot
5. Six things you wish you'd never done
6. Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
7. Four turn offs
8. Three turn ons
9. Two smileys that describe your life right now
10. One confession

1. Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

1.  Hi.  WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN.  WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO ME.  If only my heart agreed with my mind I would stop trying.  I should stop trying.  But I think I'm in love with you, and without attaching myself to you, I'll have these really dark thoughts that are painful to me (even though I know I can handle it). Just say something to me... just say that you don't like me.  Just tell me to GTFO.  Just tell me you despise my existence like what this other-person that-told-her-friend-that-she-couldn't-tell-me-in-front-of-my-face

2.  Call, no texting please, I don't have a texting plan.

3.  The only reason why I'm not stopping you from going, or moving down south is that... if you did move down there, I think I'll feel closer to her because she lives down there. 

4.  HAH, you really don't give a shit about me.

5.  OHOHOHOHO, is this why you ditched me on Thursday?!?!

6.  You've changed, ever since you married her... I don't think you're a good match at all.  Sure your income may be up, but other than that, you two are really different, from what I see, and it really looks like she doesn't love you... its just my observations.  I'm not going to tell you this directly though because I don't see you or talk to you everyday.

7.  I think you stopped talking to me because I didn't tell you something.  Oops!

8.  HAH, you really don't give a shit about me either!

9.  aHAHAH, and YOU, don't really give a shit about me either.

10.   Hi, I stalk your Tumblr almost everyday even though we haven't spoken to each other in four years, and talked to for six.  I just genuinely like who you are, that's all.  Please understand that it's not being creepy!

OHOHOHOHOHOHO.

She seems okay for now though... I shouldn't make a move. But she just started summer break... and she's not doing much from what I've researched...

Is now the best time to initiate Phase: GET HER BACK.?

I think I'll send a hate message in the peak of her happiness.

...because I don't want her to be happy without me.

Dropping the bomb.

 I now deem you as a really bad friend and I officially hate you now.

What the hell is this Tomodachi shit.  You're no friend, you treat us like shit just like your face with makeup. You're the opposite, deceiving people with your name, just like your fake personality.  All you do is care about yourself, just like the American Government, self seeking, self satisfying, and dishonest.  You creatures are despicable and I know that's why you suck the red white and blue dick.  You two are two of a kind and can empathize with one another because you only care about your own self-interests and own well-being.  People like you is what holds this country back.

I can only see you as an immature attention seeker who hopes to gain attention from those other 10, 20, or, or and, 100 boys and I'm glad I'm not part of the contraction you obtained; that virtual STD through the wireless signalling from your only genuine lover, your Laptop.

I needed you for the things you've said, and I felt that I could trust you, but you are a socially inept cowardly immature hypocrite.  I can't believe how much energy I invested in you.  I can't even believe thethings I've said about you, and that you have a good inside because you don't.

I can't believe everything we talked about actually meant something to me. I can't believe I've been thinking about this longer than the time that we've been actually friends.  What the hell.

Honesty: 2/10
Communication: 8/10
Helpfulness: 5/10
Fun Factor/Humor: 2/10
Understanding: 6/10
Reliability: 4/10
Trust: 1/10

Overall Rating: 4/10 

(I really don't mean this, sorry, this is just an experiment to see if you'd talk to me again.. and well, I'm considerate BTW coz I'm sending this after your Finals. Also, just a little change in mood because I think I should change my kind/stupid/silly methods because they are clearly not working. PLEASE don't take this seriously or you can, whatever, this is just an EXPERIMENT.  AN EXPERIMENT.)

I really don't want to hurt you, but when I get mad, I make sure the recipient is hurt.  It's all or nothing for me when I'm angry.

edited with a revamped rating system.

So I think I'm going to have a minor in Biology.  I think its funny and I feel good about it.

Be honest using your mind, not heart.

"Hi.  I don't know if i'm in the position to say this, but I'll say it anyway.  How are you doing? Or, it may be a  stupid question since I stalk your Tumblr anyways, and from the looks of it, you're doing fine, so that's like my assumption."

She really doesn't give a fuck about me...

It really won't last if its all one sided.... no wonder her friends leave her, she doesn't give a fuck.

Madman Xeno

I think its okay for me to be a twisted madman around other people... its not like I'll be their friend, in a long lasting relationship anyway.

Socializing

I notice that I like it when I'm assigned to a group.  I really like socializing once I'm assigned like that... BUT I hate going up to people by choice, initiating something to say, and stuff like that.  Maybe its my nature to just leave things as it is, and I really like it that way... I really like leaving things as it is.