Maybe...

Maybe things are better off knowing.

That's why she's not telling me anything... she's being really motherly by protecting me from the truth of how much she probably hates me or something... so motherly... motherly... like a good future wife... GAH SHE HAS TO BE MY FUTURE WIFE.

Whatever the case, it's not over until one of us dies.

Anyways, it sucks because she was all I had, that I felt was a really secure friendship... now I have to make the effort to talk to people and... shit!  The energy to sustain friendships... ughh so exhausting.

Marry Marry Marry

"By all means, marry. If you get a good wife, you'll become happy; if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher." ~Socrates

This quote has been in my head for a long time.  It's so funny because I think it's really true!  Because it combines evolutionary Biology with what's not evolutionary Biology, because we're sorta made to procreate and if we can't we think about the meaning of life because we can't really procreate in a bad relationship... and I've never been in a relationship and I'm always rejected and whatever, so...

maybe that's why I always think like this, thinking about meanings of life and shiz. So funnay.

See ya... on Facebook

doesn't it suck how we don't get to have proper goodbyes anymore?

it's always "see ya on facebook"

and knowing how easy it is to just talk online, and how easily accessible communicating is, its like never leaving or you'd feel guilty that you're not communicating, right?

so when you actually see someone, use the senses you don't use, which would be always to HUG and SNIFF.  when you see your online friend HUG AND SNIFF THAT BITCH.

"stepping out of your comfort zone will lead you to greater things"

stoopid pride

pride is so fucking stupid.

pushing my shopping cart aggressively today, passing ppl and stuff, and i was like yeah fuck ya'll i have shopping cart pride and can push it better than all of you motherfuckerssss

STUPID FUCKING THOUGHTS

Should I plan this impulse explosion?  But then again... impulses are never planned... what the fuck do I call it.

I want to know... but maybe I shouldn't.  Maybe the truth is detrimental to my health... like she hates everything about what I say and think.  That would hurt....

Maybe I'm not holding her back... maybe she's holding ME back.

yeah I like the arts...

FUCK THE TRUTH
FUCK THE TRUTH
DASRITE, FUCK THE TRUTH

JUST FUCK IT
FUCKING TRUTH.
FUCK IT, FUCK IT. FUCK IT.

maintenance

Hope I can maintain this feeling... I finally feel alive and ready to kick some ass.

No matter how prepared I was for it...

http://xenosbioz.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-premonition.html

I still fall face down.  But... this just shows... how psychic I am!

And we'll definitely end up together.  Because... what ever happens, happens, BECAUSE I'll do whatever I can to make it happen... but not for now, our friendship needs some cool down time... it can even take years....  or did we even have a friendship?

Yes, I think I created some moments... my intuition is telling me so, and so I'll hold on to this, because this is the only thing I can believe in right now, this pounding of my heart...

....this is so stupid.

ANYWAYS, WHINY KID MODE:  I'M SO HOT, FUNNY, SMART, CARING, I LISTEN TO YOU, I CAN BE A BITCH, AND SHIT AND STUFF, WHY DON'T YOU LIKE ME T_______T SHIIIIIIIIIT FUUUUCK!!!!@@!

"You need to get out more" annoyed me the most.