maintenance

Hope I can maintain this feeling... I finally feel alive and ready to kick some ass.

No matter how prepared I was for it...

http://xenosbioz.blogspot.com/2012/09/the-premonition.html

I still fall face down.  But... this just shows... how psychic I am!

And we'll definitely end up together.  Because... what ever happens, happens, BECAUSE I'll do whatever I can to make it happen... but not for now, our friendship needs some cool down time... it can even take years....  or did we even have a friendship?

Yes, I think I created some moments... my intuition is telling me so, and so I'll hold on to this, because this is the only thing I can believe in right now, this pounding of my heart...

....this is so stupid.

ANYWAYS, WHINY KID MODE:  I'M SO HOT, FUNNY, SMART, CARING, I LISTEN TO YOU, I CAN BE A BITCH, AND SHIT AND STUFF, WHY DON'T YOU LIKE ME T_______T SHIIIIIIIIIT FUUUUCK!!!!@@!

"You need to get out more" annoyed me the most.

I tried.

I guess we were nothing.  Another farewell post, Lol, I'm so pathetic in goodbyes...

quotes of the day:

"It'll only cost you your life... and you got that for free!"
"...something about life being too long."

"what you read is an abstraction of the truth"

new purpose in life:  To maintain my laziness but not get fat.

Whatever happens, happens, but with every opportunity I get, and whatever I feel, I'll do my best to make it work.

no appreciation...

I realized how little she appreciated me... I've felt it, but it was just a feeling that never actually happened... there's nothing that I can look at and say thank you to her...

didn't want to do this...

But I think I'll get mutual friends involved....

I'll wait... 17 more days, starting tomorrow.

"She's missing out" is what my friend told me after we hung out... I don't know if she was just flattering me, but those words soothed my heart.