new purpose in life:  To maintain my laziness but not get fat.

Whatever happens, happens, but with every opportunity I get, and whatever I feel, I'll do my best to make it work.

no appreciation...

I realized how little she appreciated me... I've felt it, but it was just a feeling that never actually happened... there's nothing that I can look at and say thank you to her...

didn't want to do this...

But I think I'll get mutual friends involved....

I'll wait... 17 more days, starting tomorrow.

"She's missing out" is what my friend told me after we hung out... I don't know if she was just flattering me, but those words soothed my heart.

Just You And Me

You were sitting at the coffee table
where you're reading Kierkegaard
Minutes later, you proceeded to say
something that almost broke my heart

You said, "Darling, I am tired of livin' my routined life.
There's so much in the world that i'd like
to soak up with my eyes."

Zee Avi, Just You and Me

Oh Zee Avi, these stanzas resonates with my positive soul and cuddles my heart.  

this is how the heart hardens.

I guess I was just someone you could vent to.  Nothing more.  Nothing less.