this is how the heart hardens.

I guess I was just someone you could vent to.  Nothing more.  Nothing less. 

Confidence

Confidence comes from practice...

my practice comes from my... imagination.

Damn, Didn't Think of This

Should have asked her...

"You saying that means you don't like me, righ?t"

"You having a crush on that guy means you don't like me, right?"

"You not asking how my day is means you don't like me, right?

Those Days are... Gone?

Missing the days when my priorities were leveling up and attempting to create stories.

Need to Stay Away from my House....

Otherwise I'm stuck here waiting for her, even though knowing that she'll never come back.

Bolt!

Just watched Disney's Bolt.
Fucking good movie.
I cried like three times for not story reasons.  Fuuuck I love it so much lol.

A Chitanda

Replaying the events in my head over and over again.

I can't figure out what happened... it's so split.

Deductions:  so she went to go out and play with other friends... but certainly she couldn't have forgotten about me, right?  I did talk about this other girl, did she get jealous?  (I'm hoping she would because that would show that she has feelings for me?)  But... it was only natural to get back at her... she kept talking about other guys that made me feel like... "you know what, how about this?!?!?"  I was laughing when I wrote all of that... how come she can't talk to me... maybe she really is shy, but I was hoping she would want to talk to me instead of blocking me.

I can't do anything except sleep.  This is making me even more unattractive.  I'm going insane... and I will go down with this ship.  It's been four months since I talked to her.  Like really really talked to her... and four months from now will be an anniversary for when we met.