It's more embarrassing now looking back at what I just did... I should have just left it alone, but I didn't.

If something I feel is wrong, the limit should be... four days.  After four days, then don't do anything at all and move on.

One day, then apologize quick.  Very quick.  Yup.

But I guess this was an exception because I didn't know what the fuck I actually did... come to think of it though, I didn't know what I did the other time something like this happened, but I detected some sudden animosity so I apologized quickly even though nothing was my fault.... lol wtf!  This is probably why I think I'm better off with older friends.

Mind Over Heart

Yeah, it won't work.   Even if she becomes my friend, and that she likes me, I can't like her because her communication sucks.  She never liked me anyway.

AND, it looks like she was only my friend because I like her like that?

Another reason:  She just got sick of me.

ANYWAYS, despite all this shit, at least it tests the limit to my patience?  Lol.

Volume 1 REWIND. Fascination MAX muthufucker.

I did not force myself to love her.

So I can't force myself out to unlove her.

Beginning of the second volume.

So thus ends my quest in the pursuit of her love.  Maybe.

Goodbye my low profile life style. I need to start networking for my "pride". I just need a little bit, then I'll be okay.  Just a little bit of pride would suffice.

New tongue twister:  Say shutthefuckupshutthefuckupshutthefuckup as fast as you can!

Looking back...

Holy shit how come I didn't move on.  She hung out with this guy knowing his intentions.

Everyone

Everyone wants to be loved
Everyone wants to be loved
Everyone wants to be loved

Not only me
Not only me
Not only me
Not only me

Stop being a bitch
Stop being a bitch
Stop being a bitch
Stop being a baby bitch

Setting up!

For my reclusive life...

The Ending of Chapter 3

It's weird how I think of... those who I really like in like terms of bosses.  I don't want to say names so I'll just describe them.  The bosses are the ones whom I can say that I "loved".

Stage 1-1- Some lust girl
Stage 1-2- Some other cute girl
Stage 1-3- Some cute girl with glasses
BOSS- Tall intelligent girl

Stage 2-1- Some musician girl
Stage 2-2- Some book girl
Stage 2-3- Some happy girl that becomes a friend
BOSS- Some angry girl

Stage 3-1- Some Korean girl
Stage 3-2- Some glasses girl
Stage 3-3- Some online girl with a bf
BOSS- Some girl that I was supposed to be destined with

Wth is wrong with my head...